Sunday, August 26, 2012

she's beautiful and she loves me!

There ever anything you just wish for all the time, Fiend for? We all have something like that, it drives us. Our hunger to full fill our desires is crazy. I want more of something all the time. I'm not sure if everyone is like that. Or have they given into the idea that they don't all always want more. If you're a real human then you can admit you have a problem. That's the first step to human hood. But if you can't admit it and you don't realize you're just a miserable shit stain, then you'll never amount to more then some half ass pecker. Sometimes shit happens and it scares us. If the consequences don't kill us they make us stronger.
I look for what I want, except even though I often see glimpse's of it everywhere, I can't seem to find exactly what I'm looking for. Thinking about it makes me think I should become more strategic, I should lay down some law! Set some fucking traps. That's how you get satisfaction! And that's awful! It's beautiful too! I've never been particularly good at setting traps the conventional way. I try not to attack my dreams, I think more then anything I just want to know exactly what they are. What my direction is meant to be.
The homeless kid called me! "Hey!" he says. "I'm at the city Center, could you pick my friend and me up then drive us to the outskirts of the city!" I say "No." "I thought as much" he answers. We talk. He say's "We're going to Fort Mac! Ten day's in! and I'll be able to pay for an apartment!" It might be that easy I think to myself. "B's coming with me, were hitchhiking!" he tells me. "Be careful!" I say. It's a deadly high way and he knows it, he tells me "It's the deadliest highway in Canada, I'm happy I'm bringing my camera!" I'm happy he has it too.
We all want something and that's what drives us. It's not money for anyone either. The people who think it's money are wrong for sure. Money's there to confuse you! Change your mind from what it's suppose to be moving towards. Money is a tool! It's an important tool you gotta use strategically to get what you want. It's always good to get paid getting better at fulfilling your desires. It's never the money we want, it's always that something you want to spend the money on!

3 comments:

Penny said...

"set some fucking traps"

I know what I want. I cant say what it is, because it disappears with the carbon dioxide. Heats up my universe like global warming. And, I can't grab it, fix it, kill it, keep it, invent it, or pursue it. I just have to recycle my ideas of it, my visions and my hopes and one day, I'll be rewarded with a great big rainforest.

...in which, I'll probably get bitten by a venomous spider. lol

Penny said...

"set some fucking traps"

I know what I want. I cant say what it is, because it disappears with the carbon dioxide. Heats up my universe like global warming. And, I can't grab it, fix it, kill it, keep it, invent it, or pursue it. I just have to recycle my ideas of it, my visions and my hopes and one day, I'll be rewarded with a great big rainforest.

...in which, I'll probably get bitten by a venomous spider. lol

Joseph Burben said...

Fuck it's been years since a human s left me a message! Thanks for engaging! I'm gonna be around for a while yet! We re gonna break stuff! Penny it d be cool if you wrote me your perspective on my project! the one you ve been very good for! I could share your ideas with my clients! It's the municipal government! Got a feeling your feed back might be $$$$ lol! Im evil.... just so you know!maybe you could help me develop a better program! Plus I m making movies with homeless kids! it s overwhelming.


Im alone and scared!
just look at through the blog, im sad! laugh! it s ok!