Friday, January 11, 2008

half a box of smokes

Typical Thursday night except there was almost no business, I made some money but trust me if I told you guys how much you would stop reading my blog. There was one guy I drove to Sherwood Park who tipped me twenty five buckaroos. O and there were the two musicians you gave me a half a pack of smokes, except when I looked inside it was some strange green herb. I don't smoke cigarettes so I gave the pack to a bum at the gas station, he was pretty happy. Stinky herbs. Mmm really you guys nothing much to say. I drove a girl who worked with my brother, one thing I can say is that we live in a small world. Brother if your reading LOTs of people know you, but now they know you as the taxi drivers brother. That's right big guy I am the man. O.k enough of my bullshit what can I say about tonight. Tonight my second biggest fare was from a bar that was having something like a wake for a student who hung himself. Sad. The two were crying in the back of the car. Young people should never do that. Alcohol was involved, awful. The thing is who is anyone to judge weather it was a bad thing. The kid did himself in, no one really will ever know why. Even if there is a suicide note what can it really say. All I know is that he left people who loved him behind, they were mourning his death by going out and celebrating their lives. Good on you. The girl I drove that knew the guy said she thinks she believes in God. I told her that I do. Why? because it makes my life fuller in a strange way. Like there is more to life them meets the "I". Who knows? I know, no one. Thats it, so now I know and get to go on living while knowing. Knowing what? no fucking clue, get it? yeah it's nice. Suicide is an option we have, do animals commit suicide? Sure I bet some do. I wounder if it's the same as when humans do it? Who knows? Oh yeah God maybe. Right. Wrong. Fuck!

8 comments:

bRaT said...

I guess you put a lot into perspective... i've been that depressed... that i actually considered suicide... and nobody can ever judge whether it was bad "enough"... I have my threshold, and yeah, it was bad "enough" for me....

that being said, i'm really glad that it didn't happen... because my life is much fuller now.. and not because of God, but because I choose to see it that way... Still, that's what God is to people.. keeping the faith...

kelseXy said...

I love your blog.
You must have the most interesting job in the world.

noelia ~ said...

i don't think animals can commit actual suicide, if anything, just not run away from their predators and wait to be killed.

Earric said...

Don't lemmings commit suicide? I don't know...but it is a sad thing. Especially when younger people do it.

Frederick said...

Fascinating

kelseXy said...

I'm tired of people helping me.
Hell, my sister kicked me out last night and I still don't really understand what happened.
I have to move in with the man who I've only been dating 4 months until my own place is ready.
I see this ending badly.
Anyways no worries, I'm a serious trooper yeah, so nothing is gonna stop me now. I realize my new place is in some baaaaad part of town but that's life. We all gotta start somewhere.
Hope you're having a good trip!

d + r = haye jude fantastico said...

yeah dude, i feel the same way.
my step-dad committed suicide and then my uncle did a year later...it's a pretty fucking selfish thing to do, but my belief in god definitely got me through.

your blog is my favourite new discovery.

Anonymous said...

I tried to commit suicide at 16, fact that i'm writing this proves i failed..wasn't meant to happen and glad i got a chance to see what the world has to offer. As for animals committing suicide..it's not odd to hear the Deer/rabbit "came out of nowhere" or maybe they're just dare devil animals..haha