WHy am i depressed

How do I want to do this. I want to be recognized for what I've done. It's hard being from Edmonton because this is a municipality that would rather get up all hung over and work the rigs then stay up all night and paint the world red. We live in a rust bucket. It's the way it is. If there is any talent here it's eaten up and commercialized then assaulted so bad that it stops working. Good art is always under the radar. It must be. There are people out there that advocate for the shittiest things. Those things often appear to matter but honestly they don't. For example one of #yegs most sponsored youth shelters has over 80 employees. They only take care of 27 kids. They have a 5 million dollar budget. wtf . Plus any kid that uses their programs stays on the streets!! So why does everyone fall for their marketing techniques!! Cause no one really gives a flying fuck!

In the eye

They say it's my fault, that I'm to blame. Well who the fuck are they. They're the middle aged school teachers who're dealing with the issue. What issue, the issue of their daughter. Yeah, just like those boys without fathers, those girls can't even breath the word daddy without digging up some baggage.
End result .... well that's easy. It's a prono, it's T and A baby!
So what? I scratch my balls, you wash my hand I wash your hands, you scratch your ass! Whatever...

So it's my dad's birthday. He's old enough to be my dad and I'm well into adult hood.
He was no Paparazzi. But he taught me about being a photographer. "Be critical" he d say.... He was my mom's one and only. I'm sure what they made together before me was pornography. But they were well into their thirties when I was born. I must have been the wake up call for my mother. ..... Just this big loud voice in her head saying "You can't have another kid with this jerk off!!" He ended up being a jerk off. Most of them do. Fathers. Fathers and mothers are not alike. Daughters and sons breeeeeed!!
The future is looking bleak!! It's cause our kids where bleached by parents who listened to Nirvana! the new pop is to pretend that it doesn't matter. The new pop culture is profoundly unjust. Not Nirvana. It's not my fault, it's just another alarm, another look another sun set.

The truth is I am to blame in part, I have my own generation. My own zen space to waste. I was a child and my dad bought me a camera. It was expensive! I took it to Europe. I took it to the Middle East! I took it to Bangkok. Then everything changed and well that camera my dad bought me when obsolete!! It was a birthday gift for my eleventh birthday. They stopped selling the film even... by the time I was 22! Who's fault is that! Technology is an extension of my penis! I can fuck with everyone now!
And I will. Looking back i can see that no one's looking forward. I'm then the reason they're never going to stop complaining!the minute you open your eyes and listen, you see. There's so many people here judging without any reason, well no good reason. But the sunsets tell us something.