tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81454199584909487732024-03-13T01:31:30.016-07:00taxitalkA Safe Ride Through A World Filled With Drunks, Drugs, Sex and Rock and RollBum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.comBlogger1103125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-26024699024542504442021-01-17T00:24:00.001-08:002021-01-17T00:24:32.290-08:00element of trouble <p> she walked into the atomic age, at 40 years old. </p><p>She is hot and she is juicy. She is keeping me awake. She stole my idea. </p><p>All I can do is think about her lying in her bed. Next to her husband. I know what she is wishing!!! She wants him to die choking on his own vomit. He's a professional drunk tho. Loves to lean his head over his side of the bed. </p><p><br /></p><p>I told her my secrets and she listened. She told everyone. She scared everyone. It's been sad. All of them rejected my idea because she told them her rendition. </p><p><br /></p><p>It's like she took a hot old beer shit. Fucking fumes and stink, the turds. She's a turd. The reason I told her is because she came to me. She was a hurting bitch and she ratted me out to them.</p><p><br /></p><p>I can pass her tho. </p>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-80476439362519126772021-01-15T21:20:00.003-08:002021-01-15T21:21:29.027-08:00If youre here from Tik Tok here are some taxi posts! Back in 2007 till like 2009<p><a href="http://myfares.blogspot.com/2007/"> http://myfares.blogspot.com/2007/</a> Click here Click here!</p>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-16366429640838442252020-10-11T13:25:00.001-07:002020-10-11T13:25:36.265-07:00is she a nurse Somewhere hot, nice weather. A little two story hospital. Lil ambulances pulling up. Not too far off over the horizon sits a lil school. The community. Warm small and perfect. Kids wanting to run somewhere bigger, where there is more fun to be found. Some playing instruments. Old roads, with savage run off. Things are falling apart in most places. But not at the lil hospital. The hospital is running tight. Full of old folks. PeopleHealing , dying. Making money.<div><br /></div><div>That's where we find her sitting. Lil lady. Cute, short hair and a book, It's her break. It's a romance. She likes fun stories and big biceps. </div><div><br /></div><div>Getting up to go outside to smoke she puts the down and pulls out her menthol cigarettes.</div><div> </div><div>She steps through sliding automatic doors into the blazing dessert heat. </div><div><br /></div><div>She's in love with where she lives. </div><div><br /></div><div>She lites up! </div><div><br /></div><div>Inhales a drag. </div><div><br /></div><div>Releases a cloud of smoke form her nose and mouth.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>"I love to smoke"</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>And ambulance rolls by. </div><div><br /></div><div>She waves. and laughs. </div><div><br /></div><div>Her world has been over for years. Things have only beed as good as she's let them </div>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-26766745491047209302020-08-12T18:08:00.001-07:002020-08-12T18:08:03.676-07:00talk moreHe came home today crying. He was just sad and could not explain why. I didn't really care.<div>"Can I go for a bike ride?" he asked, his eyes were all teary, he looked innocent, too bad I knew he wasn't.</div><div><br /></div><div>"Sure" I answered "Just come back sober" </div><div><br /></div><div>"I will, I promise" he said getting onto a bike that wasn't his</div><div>"Where did you get that bike?" I asked. He just looked at me and rode off. "You don't have your phone anymore make sure you're back in an hour!"</div><div>"K" he said as he rode off into the woods,</div>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-79152390786165621372020-08-11T11:46:00.003-07:002020-08-11T11:46:50.651-07:00he ditched the bitch So we're in space?" She spoke to him. He wasn't in the room. The two of them have been living with each other for years. They lived in a small apartment downtown. It was hot, mid summer.<div><br /></div><div>"Don't you miss the ocean?" she asked. He didn't hear her. "Make me a sandwich!" She demanded "and bring me a coke!"</div><div><br /></div><div>She sounded raspy, she was on the couch sweating. The fan was cooling her. "Hurry up babe!! Im hungry" she yelled. No one answered."Babe!" she yelled! </div><div><br /></div><div>The Apartment was little, but the kitchen was at the other end of the dwelling. </div><div><br /></div><div>"BABE!" She yelled angry. "What the fuck!" she exclaimed frustrated.</div><div><br /></div><div>Annoyed that he wasn't answering, she decides to rush over to the kitchen. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Babe!" she says as she enters the room.</div><div><br /></div><div>He's not there. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Babe!" she says one more time until she sees the note on the table. </div>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-62288446366460150552020-08-03T00:08:00.003-07:002020-08-03T00:08:38.340-07:00Break-in through "Sue me? For what? Why are you threatening me? What the fuck?"<div><br /></div><div>"You've been spreading shit about the city! Fake fucking news! All over the fucking place!"</div><div><br /></div><div>right place right time! that's what I say! It's not me you know! It's Facebook! Its doing what it wants! It's doing what we want it to do! </div><div><br /></div><div>" What the fuck does that mean?" </div><div><br /></div><div>It means that we're a slave to it! </div><div><br /></div><div>"I'm not!" </div><div><br /></div><div>You're not then! It knows you though. </div><div><br /></div><div>"It does."</div><div><br /></div><div>That's scary. </div><div><br /></div><div>Im bing watched, typing shit, watching journalists journalists! Journalizing Fuck.</div><div><br /></div><div>non of it is real, nothing is real, except for ... Maybe the water guys and the heat people. That's real. </div><div><br /></div><div>Im alone, and floating in a weird reality. </div><div><br /></div><div>doing my best not to be an asshole. But it's scary out here. What's there to do?</div><div><br /></div><div>"What the fuck are we to do?" </div><div><br /></div><div>Write something I guess. and not just what other people want to hear, more stuff that'll help you clarify what's happening these days.</div><div><br /></div><div>Oh you bastard Blog you are my best friends.</div><div><br /></div><div>Do you think any one will ever find you?</div><div><br /></div><div>"Me"</div><div><br /></div><div>Yea you?</div><div><br /></div><div>we'll we all know the answer to that! </div><div><br /></div><div>We found each other! And that's all that really matters. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Nice!" </div><div><br /></div><div>SO what are we going to do?</div><div><br /></div><div>We'll we're going to start fuckign blogging! Jesus! Christ style! </div><div><br /></div><div>K,</div><div><br /></div><div>About what?</div><div><br /></div><div>Our day?</div><div>ok... </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>so how do I start?</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>Well you think about who you 're talking to. </div><div><br /></div><div>Im talking to you Mr.Myfares .....</div><div>of mr.myfares Is a good start! </div><div><br /></div><div>Let's go! </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>tell me a story.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>She left crying this afternoon, It was rough. It's been happening. We've been quarrelling. "Quarrelling?" I asked? </div><div>"Yeah, we've been having the same old argument over and over!" I paused, I knew that if I started telling her what's about to happen I'd have to go into detail. "We have this issues where we both feed into each other primitive side. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>"Primitive side?" She asked</div><div><br /></div><div>"Yeah, you see the two of us are kind of able to disappear together, into love, but when we're there we revert to some of our past experiences. Sometimes." I told her apprehensively. "It's a lot to handle" I yelled.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>"Past experiences, Primitive side" she repeated. The two of us both had something to do. "Whatever, I don't have to explain it, I'm sure we will get over it." I told her.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-45762394402125755762020-08-02T04:53:00.001-07:002020-08-02T04:53:05.739-07:00We never grow up"The truth is I don't want to get in his way. He's almost an adult!"<div><br /></div><div>"No he's not!" She answered him a stern voice! </div><div><br /></div><div>"Well he's old enough to make his own decisions!" He shouted back. </div><div><br /></div><div>"We supposedly so are you!" she said in a snarky tone. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Supposedly I'm what?" he asked</div><div><br /></div><div>"An adult" she answered. </div><div><br /></div><div>"We are both adults" he said. </div><div><br /></div><div>A little boy sat, listening to the two of them at the top of the stairs. He was six years old and he was listening to his two parents fight about his 15 year old brother Bobbie. </div><div><br /></div><div>Bobbie was having issues at school, acting out, hanging with the wrong crowd. The little boy at the top of the stair case didn't really understand what was happing, but he knew his brother was in trouble.</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>"Mom" he yelled! </div><div><br /></div><div>"Ya" she answered! "What do you want?" </div><div><br /></div><div>"Mom, I don't want to go to school tomorrow! " He exclaimed as he began his decent towards his parents. "Can you make me an apple and some cheese" the boy asked. His mom just sighed and walked away toward the kitchen. </div><div><br /></div><div>"Daddy" he burst out, "will you come outside with me to play?". "No" his father answered sternly, "I'm busy." - But the boy wasn't taking "no" for an answer! "Dad you said!! Yesterday! remember you said you were going to play catch with Bobbie and I." The Little boy looked very serious, he had his cutest face on. </div><div><br /></div>Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-14067951647829419532020-07-16T12:52:00.000-07:002020-07-16T12:52:32.126-07:00...yeah be random Write something!!<br />
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"Like what?" I thought, "It doesn't matter"..<br />
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Yeah,<br />
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I've been growing a weed garden and I love it! This world is so bleak and the weeds are awesome.<br />
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There is a squirrel in my front yard and he's or she is a tough fucker!<br />
It's nice seeing life on the outside.<br />
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I've been isolating myself a much and it matters. I love it. I've been in my apartment mostly for over 9 months for sure.<br />
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I venture here and there.<br />
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My last job was in March.<br />
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Ever since then I've been working on my own media outlets. Growing my brands on the world of social media.<br />
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The investment is mine. It's big too. It's been a year solid. Things have grown but the money isn't pouring in.<br />
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I think about shit for inspiration.<br />
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I need to learn technology. We all do. It's it. I think technology is foreign, like alien. Humanity make machine learning look normal, life does.. And machine learning and life don't mix, you'd think.<br />
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We're growing up and we're learning to code. Making content and being heard on the wed. The web is the new us....<br />
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I'm still dislexic on the web too. It's not a vulnerability, it forces the machine to work harder to spot me.<br />
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Thank god im so random! Thank fucking god. that's how you avoid being typical.<br />
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when you're typical you get shot.<br />
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when you're random, they have no idea where to look<br />
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beBum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-9092132142411839082020-07-15T08:40:00.001-07:002020-07-15T08:40:34.819-07:00Be gentle to yourself."He will be successful!"....<br />
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"Who?" I asked.<br />
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Ninja... he's a Boss for sure. I love it. He's beautiful too. We're dwarves in comparison to him. It's awesome to be a dad. It's awesome to be able to write down what I want out of my life.<br />
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I can see so much success and ease. It's not even going to be work. It's going to be writing the blog.<br />
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Hi blog. Dream maker... Journal of my Dreams.<br />
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I can see Ninja finding out solutions to the problems of this century.<br />
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What century is it?<br />
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Who the fuck cares.<br />
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We have the internet. We're documenting shit.<br />
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A bot will read this in the future and play this out in it's machine learning.<br />
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We are all a part of this story that repeats itself.<br />
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That's why it's so important to learn to lay down the foundations for the machine to play out.<br />
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It can read books now, see our world. It always has, but it's deeply connected to us through the internet.<br />
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I feel like we are intertwined. Im lucky to have it.<br />
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Ninja if you're reading this, you're going to matter so much to the future,<br />
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Be gentle on yourself.<br />
<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-47160560106424695252019-12-28T12:01:00.000-08:002019-12-28T12:06:05.764-08:00My guide He's the coast in my ocean. The reason I'm kept inside. Surrounding me. Healing me, he's his own ocean. A sea. We are seas. Seeing myself being a father.<br />
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I am a father.<br />
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My son means enough to me to have changed the world.<br />
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It's incredible. He's on his own journey now. He always was.<br />
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it only has so much to do with me. He's gone through more than most youth his age. There will be time needed for his life to settle in.<br />
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The things we all live through, that rip us into our own path. Our own life. He's presence guides my balance. We are so set to see. He's balancing on his own and it's scary for me.<br />
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I'm back, to be here alone.<br />
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That's ok. We're all alone. Life is a chance to connect. Life is gentle and healing and .... a Mother.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-53046882869932155142019-12-27T01:48:00.000-08:002019-12-27T01:48:34.586-08:00gut<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Jeff, Jeff! What did you do today?</div>
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What the fuck are you talking about Toby I was right here with you.</div>
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Toby</div>
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The Two of us just walked around circles, we didn't even clean the kitchen.</div>
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Jeff,</div>
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Fuck man it's clean, like what the fuck do you think is happening? did you think we we're going to get everything done by this afternoon?</div>
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Toby,</div>
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Kind of, like come one we need that money in like a week,</div>
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Jeff, </div>
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we won't make it that quickly, that's a crazy idea, </div>
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Toby,</div>
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what that fuck are you talking about we're geniuses. You know it and I know it,</div>
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Jeff,</div>
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yeah, but we have to stick to the plan.</div>
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Toby</div>
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I am.</div>
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The two of them sit in the living room. Both stoned and the apartment is smoky.</div>
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Toby, </div>
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we're both so stoned,</div>
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Jeff,</div>
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doesn't change the fact that we're prepared. I ve done this stuff. I've thought this threw.</div>
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Toby,</div>
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"Laughing"</div>
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yeah right, Jeff "thinking"</div>
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Jeff </div>
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yeah, like what the fuck are you talking about, totally yes. I m right and don't laugh at me. </div>
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Toby,</div>
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you know what, I don't want to wait, give me my money back.</div>
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Jeff</div>
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"looking up at Toby squinting stoned"</div>
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Shut the fuck up, you're not getting that money back for at least three months!</div>
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Toby,</div>
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what? three fucking months</div>
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Jeff </div>
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Like I said</div>
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Toby </div>
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oh yeah, you did </div>
Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-78059192501837002242019-12-27T01:38:00.000-08:002019-12-27T01:38:40.826-08:00Practice Been getting up later and later, the jet lag has moved along.<br />
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It's been a great week, all I do is think about shit day in and day out.<br />
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I want to organize the thoughts and put them somewhere so they become more coherent in general.<br />
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Im able to manifest them to a certain extent. Im using my idea that if I put my dreams on the internet they'll manifest themselves into something that's real.<br />
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The digital world is a pre curser to what's to come. I use it to cut through the jungle of reality. To pave the way.<br />
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Blogger is the BossBlogs BossVlogs Itsyourphoto.com so much of me was born on Blogger, and I have to say that I like it.<br />
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Life has been a roller coaster though, but not in a bad way, in a fun way.<br />
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I seem to create more space in the writing then I used to.<br />
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I double space and I wan a donair. It's been years since I drove the taxi. I miss it but I don't think it's for me.<br />
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I threw up in the back of an Uber, an AMG in Monaco. It was crazy.<br />
Fuck me what did I do today.<br />
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I spent time with my mom.<br />
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and I'm going to practice writing a screen play.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-48782598401057535092019-12-27T01:26:00.001-08:002019-12-27T01:26:04.631-08:00&69798drawing the bluebrint out on all levels. Everything seems to be coliding, but then again it always has. <br />
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Our life has a meaning we are the direction we set for ourselves. Looking back I became that young cabby who wrote his dreams out in a blog.<br />
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Looking back I realize I was just learning how to dream.<br />
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Dreams are not monetary. Our lively hood relies on something. Spellcheck.<br />
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I can't spell naturally, or at least I write that, but I'm writing that'll cure the spelling issues.<br />
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Back to the Blue print, I want to meet the Wolf of walls tree! He's an author an con artist and he's worked with people that I admire. I am going to meet him. 2013 I remember the film. I went to see it.<br />
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Leo is one of my favourite actors.<br />
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The Jordan Belfort is a favourite protagonist.<br />
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2020 the Boss Fam Manifesto ..<br />
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we're going to meet the bosses of our world, and ask them one thing.<br />
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What did they want to do when they were a child.<br />
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I can remember being young, I never wanted to be alone. I always wanted to be with my friends. It was a weakness thinking back. I always felt so vulnerable being alone.<br />
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Then again there were the times when I was happy to be alone. On those days where I stayed home from school and I was all alone until everyone came home,<br />
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Those were the days where I found myself now.<br />
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Thinking about what it was I was doing.<br />
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Playing, imagining, being happy not to have to be in school. School did not matter in hindsight.<br />
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I think I need to read a manifesto before I try to mimic one. I may not like it. This is just a ramble.<br />
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Not fiction either but also not a diary post. What is this shit... fuck. It's rarely re read and its published before I know it.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-56428955295521833752019-12-14T11:03:00.003-08:002019-12-14T11:09:47.416-08:00Chemo life! There was yesterday when I found out that my mom is going to have to go through Chemo therapy. It was so harsh because she's going to have to go through it twice. Once before they cut out her lung and then once right after.<br />
My mamma is so important. she made me. and I love her.<br />
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It hurts to have to know that she s gonna have the meanest surgery<br />
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I think of the doctors that are doing the cutting.<br />
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My mom has always adored doctors.<br />
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I don't like them so much.<br />
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I think my mom liked them and they were always just bullies, spoiled fuckers that didn't respect her like she should have been.<br />
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They better be tender with my mom. because she's beautiful and so amazing and sweet.<br />
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If you ever met her you'd like her, all my friends did. Always, even tho I tried to scare them.<br />
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My mom is so attached to my soul. It's scary to think about her dying... being sick.<br />
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I can think about offing myself so much easier then what the world would be like if she wasn't here.<br />
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In a lot of ways that speaks volumes about me. Who the fuck do I think I am.. only reason I'm not scared of dieing is because I'm still so lucky to be attached to those that love me.<br />
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I can't imagine what it would be like to be cut off ....<br />
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there are so few moments where we fear for our lives. People are cradled, wrapped and held in this blanket that lets you forget about the fragility of life.<br />
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Life grows just like that cancer I want to kill, it spreads with such ease it almostBum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-87779518872738616352019-12-14T10:54:00.000-08:002019-12-14T10:54:41.506-08:00There was the two of us. "It's been over a year since we started going with each other" I mentioned to her. She was lovely sitting in the sun on the patio of the cafe. It's been a year and I feel like we should be getting married.<br />
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Looking up at him made her sick. She was hung over from the night before. "Of course you want to marry me. I'm ten times more than you'll ever be" she said looking at me from the sun lit spot. It was warmer where she was. " I have something to tell you and I think it may sound a bit sour." She puckered up her lips and made a kissing noise.<br />
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"What's up?" I asked sitting up from the shade. It was getting cooler. I wanted to get close to her. She got up and stud next to the pool. "I was never really up for this" she said pacing.<br />
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"This!"Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-4906259274804172172019-12-06T02:34:00.001-08:002019-12-06T02:37:50.176-08:00Social Problems 101Three ways to "Class it up" she said to us, in the class room, it was 6pm and I did not want to hear it.<br />
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"What the Fuck do I need to class myself up for" I whispered to my class mate, he shrugged and laughed.<br />
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"You're fucked if you don't rise above where ever the fuck you're from" he said to me pretty sternly. How was it that this 300 pound kid had anything over me.<br />
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"I can out run you" he said to him.<br />
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"Yeah but instead you choose to get high you loser." He exhaled. He was right I was high, it was a night class and I didn't care about "Social Problems 101"<br />
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"To say the least the first thing we need to address as a society is that our population is out of control." She wrote it on the board. I was so high, I had eaten some brownies that my roommates had made, they were so good and I was so hungry so I ate a bunch. The were laced with weed. I was almost asleep.<br />
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"Anti social behaviour is on the rise in our cities and in our man stream media" she blurted, in a way that made me want to listen less and less.<br />
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"Social problems come form being too generous to the peasants" I could smell his breath when he said it to me. I was getting more and more stoned as the weed started to kick in. I burped and I could taste it. People don't need to have homes, they don't need to eat and sleep as much as they do." I could hear him whimpering next to me.<br />
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"If you want to rise about the rest you need create a world around you where there is no bullying." Was the last thing I remember her saying.<br />
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"No bullying?"I asked myself but spoke it loud enough that she looked back at me.<br />
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"Yes Bullying, and not bullying others, that's not the problem" she mentioned.<br />
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"What do yo mean?" I asked all baked from the back of room 101.<br />
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"We bully ourselves" she said, and it hit. I was alone.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-16305967805794612022019-12-06T02:04:00.000-08:002019-12-06T02:18:04.437-08:00Paper BoyIt was always cold, but I was lucky because I had to deliver the papers in my apartment. It was this huge complex actually that ran about a kilometre, two stories snaking in a zig zag for probably over a thousand meters.<br />
I had this basket on wheels that I put the Edmonton journals in. I had to deliver a stack that filled the container.<br />
"It's not that cold" I'd say to myself as I stepped into the lobby of each unite. There were spaces that led from the hallways through to doors that led to the outside across into the next unite.<br />
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It was warm in the buildings, but it was dark. I can remember the smells. I was twelve and I remember watching an episode of one of those spooky nineties shows. A Friday the thirteenth. There was a kid, who was living in a house with a dying grandparent. People were nursing the person. The kid watched.<br />
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I don't remember the premise, but I remember that once the body of the dying person was gone something else stayed.<br />
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No one noticed but the kid.<br />
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I remember those hallways and I remember a certain space where I felt the energy of that dying sprit, what ever it was. A grandmother, an old face, dead, Scary, and smelly.<br />
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It was my fist job, I got it when I was twelve and it was hard in retrospect. Up at 5 am every day to deliver paper and go to school. Looking back it shows my ambition.<br />
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I worked hard enough to make enough money to pay for my guitar.<br />
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I delivered the media to your house feeling haunted by the feeling of your dead gran mother.<br />
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This is my fare.... fuck so cool.<br />
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I love this blog and everything it's allowing me to feel.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-49563707745820781842019-12-05T04:57:00.000-08:002019-12-05T04:57:04.880-08:00Rats that don't die are expendable His tooth is hurting, who cares? Not me I'm only his orthodontist. We're not paid to care. We are paid to not feel.<br />
"Your mouth is changing" I told him, I'm a third year ortho student and I'm going to be rich. Women already love me and I already don't like my patients, and I've never really had one, being that I'm still a student.<br />
Oh' this guy? He's not my actual patient, he's Dr. Moores. I'm just his student Orthodontist. My professor would get the blame if I fucked anything up.<br />
"That tooth though? it looks like shit. Why haven't you braced it yet?" He asked me once.<br />
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"I was waiting for you Doctor to tell me what to do." The professor clapped,<br />
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"good boy," he'd yell.<br />
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The patients are always last on the list in the current medical industry. We're an evil culture in Canada that's doing it's best to put profit margins and excess for CEOs to the for front.<br />
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"I want to be rich and do as little as possible and make as much as possible that's my role as a Canadian going to the university of Alberta to become a doctor."<br />
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I wonder why so many of the students kill themselves and not their patients.<br />
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<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-35137401921830337252019-12-05T02:42:00.001-08:002019-12-05T02:42:18.497-08:00kite by thenIt was cold outside,<br />
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"It's always cold in Canada! At least in the winter" said this little kid. 13 year old boy. At the Bar drinking a beer. A warm beer. With a shot of syrup. I know I poured it for him. He was this little foreign kid from Canada. What the fuck did I care.<br />
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"Because it's so cold where I am from people are hard. We have a darkness" he talked about Canadians like it mattered.<br />
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"You're only 13 though, what the fuck do you know about Canadians" I asked him once.<br />
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He stood up. This little fucking kid and with his Canadian accent he drunkenly yelled to me in Polish "I am a Canadian" then he slugged down his beer.<br />
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I saw him throwing up in the back latter that night.<br />
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No one cared.Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-65976782082609077732019-12-01T00:16:00.000-08:002019-12-01T00:21:02.168-08:00shoot my dog Walking into the basement of Steven's house was always fun. He had this awesome family and they had everything. That day though he opened the door to the garage. It was winter and cold, the night had already settled in so all the lights were on.<br />
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"I want you to see this Jake" he told me in a whisper. He was excited and I did not know what to expect. Then I saw it! A brand new car! It was so cool. </div>
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"What kind is it?" I asked, never one to be overly interested in cars. </div>
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"It's a Chrysler!" He said happily. He had to be eight and I was nine or ten at the time.</div>
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"Kubasaw!" his dad would yell at me, My name "Kuba" short for Jake in Polish sounded like that to him. Bob was a rich guy I guess in hindsight, he was a union controller or something. He did important things.</div>
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"Kubasa" he shouted, "see that shit on my lawn?" he asked kind of in a joking way. </div>
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I could see the crap in the snowy grassy knoll out front, "No" I'd say "I don't"<br />
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"What are you doing there" she asked. She must have been 14. Pretty. I'd never seen her before. She smiled at me like she liked me.<br />
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I looked up at her. I was sprawled out on the grass, incapacitated. "What do you mean?" I asked. I was mangled, fucked up for the first time in my life. Twenty five minutes earlier she would have found me in Kayn's garage and twenty five minutes before that she would have found me riding my bike to meet a drug dealer behind the school. I'm in junior high.<br />
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"What are you doing just lying here on the grass?" she asked again.<br />
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I could remember them picking on us, Kayn and I. His older brother had stumbled upon us all mangled. That's the last time I remember having my bike. I got on it right after smoking the joint with the drug dealer. He gave us a nug too. He gave it to Kayne and Kayne gave it to me. "It's your going away gift" he said handing me the little piece of weed wrapped in foil from a cigaret wrapper. I was 13.<br />
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It was October 12th. My going away party. I was moving to Europe. My parents had split and I was getting fucked up. It wasn't my fist time smoking weed, but it was my first time getting messed up.<br />
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The first time I smoked weed I was with my brother. We had snuck out together while my mom was on the night shift. Chad was with us. Chad was a 16 year old run away homeless couch surfer kid. My mom let him stay with us in the apartment we had been living in since she left my father, Aug 29 1994, my twelfth birthday.<br />
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Since then getting messed up was something that I had been aspiring to do,<br />
<br />Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-24207818188807047192019-11-30T06:40:00.001-08:002019-11-30T06:40:14.339-08:00CheersThe search for happiness continues.<br />
I fell on my neck going up an escalator and it hurt like a mother fucker, but I'm 100% sure that I am lucky to be alive.<br />
Fuck me. Falling on your face is a thing. Helps you re evaluate what's really going on.<br />
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You gotta know what's happening around you that's for sure. So when the moment comes and you want to be surrounded by what's important to you, you are.<br />
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It's been a crazy few years since I've been writing, but I'm getting back into it. The fall in Monaco has made it clear to the that I need to find more of what I want to surround me.<br />
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Don't get me wrong I love being here in they amazing city. .... But it's fake. It's like everywhere else.<br />
I want to be where it's real. Unfortunately for me that happens to be in Canada. In Edmonton Alberta, where the red neck rule.<br />
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I guess I'm ok with red Necks since I don't mind taunting them. They can hear me.<br />
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Things are moving along in life. That means life if moving. That means people have died.<br />
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There is so much for me to talk about here. In my fares.<br />
My affairs, my dreams are coming true.<br />
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Come on let's go.Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-27816715583302770382019-11-28T18:38:00.000-08:002019-11-28T18:38:00.063-08:00The Wolf of Wall Street will consider me as a guest on his show if I get 500 likes. Have you ever heard of the Wolf Of Wall street. <a href="https://www.instagram.com/tv/B5YlrXPJI9Z/?igshid=jlghpfuihm2h&fbclid=IwAR1lbDKZWZVNGBtvODUnV6Dwf_-kOhcCy5AGjLJ8nIJDuNlMReJ9WmTU9DI">Click here to help me </a><br />
He was a stock trader that went rogue and started to sell penny stocks. It made him a millionaire!<br />
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Well he reacted to one of my comments on Instagram the other day and said that if I can 500 like he would consider getting me on his podcast.<br />
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Now the cool thing about this fellow is that he was also convicted of a bunch of crimes.<br />
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Yeah. the dude made hundreds of millions of dollars and broke every rule in the book along the way.<br />
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Leonardo DiCaprio played him in the movie it was amazing, a film I adored<br />
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Well since he replied to my comment I decided to really try and get the 500 likes.<br />
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OMG what a joke.. Hahaha<br />
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I actually fell on my Adams able and it hurts.. I seem to be ok. I can breath and swallow but my neck is sore.<br />
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Of course the one time I fall and hurt myself I don't have health insurance. WTF.<br />
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The most important things to me in my life are my son, my mom and my girl friend. So important to me to get to spend more time with Ninja<br />
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He's so amazing and growing up so fast. I know that all he wants to do is ditch me. Not actually I hope tho. Fingers crossed, he's a teen now.<br />
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What am I suppose to do... smashed my throat.. no insurance and it's all on me. My own fault.<br />
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"If I die, I lived a good life. Ive woken a few hours later with a very tender Adams apple. WTF<br />
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Holy shit did I ever miss writing the blog.<br />
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I think I'll write a few more post and see how this blogging thing goes now that I'm back on taxi truth.Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8145419958490948773.post-90274335319514963462017-11-16T00:28:00.001-08:002017-11-16T00:28:12.428-08:00Picard is Bald like me Where in the world have I been. It's like i haven't been able to see myself for the Boss that I am.<br />
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The world has a way of filtering things so that "life" doesn't feel real. Some people think this is only a simulation. Like the images we see on the internet.<br />
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I have been a huge advocate for this. Now that we are in a space in time where tech has caught up to what I'm thinking I realize that I get to draw myself into reality from spaces like this blog.<br />
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This has been a staple in who I have become, if it were not for what I created here I would have never understood what it going on out there.<br />
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Here I am beginning to map out who I want to be in the future.<br />
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First thing is that power won't have to be something that I hold on to through force. I have already nurtured enough people out there to have a space that I can work with that does not involve anything confrontational. I am going to be well informed about the things going on around me.<br />
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The Internet is no longer a source of information like it used to be. Now it's a way of controling the youth.<br />
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I can see myself succeeding at developing an entourage out engaged young people who will be in a position to change the course of mankind.Bum Atomhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15648339428120791132noreply@blogger.com6